I reblog whatever I feel like at the time... Meaning you're gonna see some majorly random shit.. And I don't fucking care what you think, so don't bother judging me
………I’m the kind of person who would do that… hell if I’m sitting next to someone and I’m bored or don’t have anything useful to add to the conversation, I’ll just randomly reach out like “pooooooke”
What if I wasn’t so afraid of being alone… What if I didn’t feel like I have to have someone to pay attention to me or actively care about me, so that I don’t feel like I’m going to fall apart……. What if I wasn’t like this………
…I think the reason that I’m the way that I am…. Is because of being homeschooled… I’d only ever gotten to have one year of public school and it had been kindergarten at that….. and then after that I spent the majority of my life alone…. which is why I ended up with a head full of imaginary people and why I try to make friends with anyone that holds still long enough….
…and that is probably why I don’t do well when I’m alone… because it makes me remember the way things were and I get scared that everyone around me is gonna start leaving again like when I was growing up…. and so I get kinda clingy at times, and try to go out of my way to do things to make people happy…. still never being able to really spend any time with friends……
…and then when I’d started trying to finally date.. I was always so desperate to not mess things up, that I’d mess them up and then be just that much more clingy and desperate trying to keep them from leaving… which led to trying to always find someone else to hold close…. which always seemed to end the same way…….
…still not being able to see friends or people I dated that often……
……I still don’t get to see anyone that much…. I mean, because of being in college now, I get to see my friends several times a week… but don’t really get to hang out that much outside of campus……
And even in my groups of friends… I always feel kinda like I’m on the outside still…. like at times I’m still alone, even when I’m surrounded by people who I call friends….
…..it makes me wonder…..
What would I be like now, if I’d not been homeschooled…. Would I still like the things I like… Would I still be like I am…. Would I have just ended up the outsider, even if I’d grown up where I’d be surrounded by people…… Or would I be different….. Would I still be mentally unstable………
…Would I even be able to recognize myself……
"…And I’m trying so hard. To just maintain some sense of sanity. While driving myself insane…..”
You should read this, regardless of if you own or even like snakes…
I watched the full video, and I’m not sure what made me feel sicker;
Seeing such a beautiful creature doing something so harmful/potentially fatal to itself…
Or the fact that someone would stand stood there recording, making remarks about the snakes intelligence and joking about suicide, rather than doing anything to help the poor creature.
If you are really so sadistic as to find this as ‘cute’ or ‘funny’, than you have some serious issues, and shouldn’t be allowed to have a pet. Or to care for anything alive for that matter.
I don’t understand how anyone could find an animal of any kind in distress, whether it be a snake so hungry that it starts eating itself, a kitten falling down the stairs, a bird that repeatedly flies into a window, a turtle stuck on its back.. or a squirrel with a slurpee cup lid caught around its neck like a cone for a dog (Use to come to my back porch almost every day for 2 years.. I’d watched the poor thing end up knocking down half the food it tried to eat.. I always wished there was some way I could catch it to get it off)….
There have been species which have gone extinct, because no one stopped to realize that there might have been something wrong, and instead just laughed at the “stupid animals” as the last surviving of their kind beat themselves to death against the cage walls.
For a people who seem so concerned with humanity and getting equal rights for just about everyone and everything at this point.. There is still a large amount who are anything but humane. Whether it be toward an animal or another person.
Whatever happened that whole “Do unto others as you would have others do unto you” ..I’ve never read a bible and really I don’t plan to ever do so, but according to the internet, that is where it comes from.. And it was something that I’d always been told growing up, and something that I’ve tried to live by…
This is awesome
So.. I think I’m possibly the world’s most awesome friend….
I nuzzled big boobies today… It was great
My mom finally noticed that I’ve been binding.. It only took her 3 months… Now let’s see if she can figure it out on her own
I’m a gay baby! *sparkles and rainbows and anime eyes* I has a pretty scarf!
I honestly don’t know anymore
…x-x this disturbs me